During the early years of my spiritual searching, I bumped into a plethora of cult like groups. So many of them were small ego driven cliques, where your participation was allowed as your ability to suspend belief, move common sense and keep your mouth shut. At first these groups so pleased that you can attend, I loved learning all this new stuff about meditation and energy, I was an eager participant. And then it eventually moves to, we find your line of questions and remarks not in keeping with “HOW THINGS ARE DONE”. I went through a bunch of so called spiritual groups to find them all lacking in the spirituality they were selling. It was the, my way or the highway, path of small group spirituality. BOOOOOOOOOOO!

I think it was why I decided to do my own yoga thing in Minnesota, 1. There was no Guru to follow up here and it was toooooooooooooo cold and me to poor, to hunt one. Few years of that and the world changes, and I needed certification to teach and insurance and blahhhhhhhh.The big hand of an overlord moves into mandating spirituality.

Silver lining was that at first It was exciting. I was getting to go to different places to get certifications meet new people learn new practices. And to my horror I assumed (one of my worst early spiritual walk traits), that anyone searching the path of Yoga would have the practices of Yoga at their heart, see how freaking naive that is…people were leaning how to make a buck.

I should have learned the Tarot first and of the trickster card. I learned about the trickster from church as the Devil and Satan made me do it. It was something to run from. A person did not do deals with the devil. Yet, soon I learned Yoga teachers did do deals with the devil and to them yoga was loose clothing, loose lips and hips, and are you kidding me!

You cannot blame me for wanting there to be actual integrity in this world of spirituality. I learned the words fear of God early in my life and karma will get you, later in life. No one taught that you could get away with this shit. Yet and again everywhere there are humans for the world maturity is lost on and the control offered by the second chakra domination as far as they got in their own personal spiritual climb.

So I taught myself to avoid all of that, I’m so smart, just to join a system claiming the word “spiritual” as the dominating force of their yoga as if all yoga were not spiritual practices but I digress. At the time I bought it, I felt the standards were filled with integrity and I could align myself to them. Until I got a good look at them.

Did I learn nothing from rewatching the Wizard of OZ, everyone knows the wizard is just a man behind the curtain.

What a disappointment!