bi polar
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Last post was the accumulation of months perhaps years of needing and wanting help. The eternal idea that somehow, someway, I would get answers to some pressing issues that frankly have stopped me in my tracks. Like a bad diagnosis, or news you can’t run from sometimes shit happens and you just have to take… Read more
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I don’t like asking for help because for most of my life there has been no one around to ask. When I am standing in shit I get the mop out and clean it up myself because nobody else is going to. I have learned the hard way, over and over again, that people will… Read more
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I have to many questions. So many questions and nowhere to go for answers. I think lots of people feel this way. What’s going to happen? When will it happen? Will it ever happen? Questions questions questions! What is the answer? Where do we go for answers? And do we even get to have the… Read more
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There is one consolation in being sick; and that is the possibility that you may recover to a better state than you were ever in before. Henry David Thoreau After an intense time of emotional upheavals one can hit a wall. I hit mine on my way to LA and promptly got sick. As I… Read more
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Today is my eldest son’s 32nd birthday. This is my precious son who often hurts on the inside. He lives in a pain stream with a constant bombardment of negative feelings and voices pressing him to push away the love that surrounds him. We have been working to get him to see out of his… Read more
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I’m undaunted in my quest to amuse myself by constantly changing my hair. Hillary Clinton I am one of those women who enjoys changing my look to accommodate my emerging identity. I have worn my hair in so many different ways and have been so many different colors, (probably speaks to the many personalities living… Read more
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I am a tree a big strong tree. This tree just spent a week standing against a storm. The same storm that comes over and over again in my life. I am a mother of a bipolar son who wants to live and doesn’t want to live at the same time because the burning sensation… Read more
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I dreamed a dream that I was fish in a pond. I am a large fish because my spirit is large yet I swim without a care. I swim in waters that do not scare me and though I never know where I am, I know I am where I am supposed to be. I… Read more
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I am getting worn out looking and watching the world. It is amazing to me the amount of pain I see everywhere I look. Everyone is angry or upset or lost in some type of drug induced stupor. What happened to our world? It seems the heat of this summer is reflecting a much deeper… Read more
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My daughter got the pictures back from her wedding and I looked through them first with a critical eye on how awesome I looked. After a moment of vanity I continued to look and I came across this picture of my three kids. I was struck by the passage of time. I just stared at… Read more
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