I want to give you a bit of background. I’ve had this blog for years and I stopped blogging this last year for 2 reasons. 1. I had become so disenfranchised with nearly everything I saw and was experiencing. The chaos of the pandemic and then my move from Santa Monica back to Minnesota, which was the year that the Earth changed as far as I am concerned and I was in a state of hate over it. I was in Santa Monica when it was destroyed by the riots. I had to watch humans forgetting they were human. Now it continues while the political landscape also forgets its humanness, working to destroy years of “are women allowed to be people too!” UMMMM no we are not, we are simply baby making machines for the republican asshole party, so mad at America am I…

I withdrew from the world, I backed myself up and isolated myself. I lost a lot of people who I thought were friends. At the same time my heath, my ever tenuous health took a turn. I should never anticipate a bout of depression as single symptom, it always follows a vast change that I am rejecting, though I probably and unconsciously set up for myself. Every moment is filled with lessons and perspective and as humans it’s our ability to forget who we are that allows us to sink into a horrifying world of our imagination. I hated this world and everyone of you who contributed to it.

I was told as a child we were living in a blessed time. It was the end of the 60’s moving into the 70’s. The world of modernity was opening people to experiences and opportunities that hadn’t been available before. I wanted to be an astronaut but as a girl I wasn’t allowed, now there are women astronauts. But the world has turned and it’s a nightmare. Women’s rights being taking away and worse what is happening across the world over. So if you want to feel like shit, well the evidence of the horror field is everywhere you look.

Back to my imagination…what we as humans have rejected is the idea of the power of our OWN mind, we succumb to the power of other minds and walk in negativity with heavy guilt over the oppressing mind that is bearing down on us. Death and destruction everywhere. It was the death and destruction of my so called spiritual community that hit me sideways first. When man teacher rejected me because my mouth was to big and my brain wasn’t addled, it was within a spiritual community that at its beginning allowed thinking amongst the members but the teacher wanted more power, those of you with minds of your own please shut the door on your way OUT.

So the door shut, the one my money helped build. It’s the 3rd time, that I am aware of, that he dismantles the group in order to reorganize around more power and control. At lot of people who were very dedicated to him were also shown the door. If it smells like a cult and quakes like one too…

Idea of a teacher or need of one, over…the idea someone has more experience being me or can teach me, that is over. A preacher to tell me how to be close to God, also over. Let’s reorganize our self based on the thought that God Creator Source, is actually the foundation of the who we are. Brainwashing is an effing real thing. To hold power over a people with an idea, is power, but power used incorrectly.

So I am changing lanes on this fast moving planet hurling through space. It’s a lane I will walk by my human self as I continue to reinforce what I have always innately known. God is with me and nothing not even the haters of men can change that. The power of my being is already in me, I need do nothing to establish that fact. But I can let someone take that fact away from me and teach me to be cowed by their mouth, BOOOOOOO

So maybe I am not only changing lanes but mindset and I can only hope others want the same. Why do you people need to be told anything by a human who is no better than themselves.

2. second reason I haven’t blogged, WordPress and I had an issue and my blog was gone for a while, but I found it. So here I am.

Time to walk in truth!