I think it may be safe to say that trusting anyone in this world climate is a gamble to say the least. Being a spiritual teacher for so long, the one thing that became hard was the amount of humans I would have to deal with that spoke out of both sides of their mouth. The entire reason for me to delve into the spiritual world was the hideous nature of my background and the lack of integrity in almost every human in my family. The ones who had integrity were my mothers adopted family. Not blood relatives.

The hard truth about the world is slowly realizing that what you may have been taught just wasn’t the truth. So many children have been indoctrinated into the beliefs of their family, this world is the outcome of this, in part. We as citizens of the world gave our sovereignty away and now watching as women rights get taken away. So who do we trust when the actions of our planet are so far away from the world we believed we were given by our Creator. What happened to Heaven on Earth.

I have recently had the great pleasure of dealing with the worse of my ex husbands. He was the last and the one who texted me his desire to fire me from my marriage, took up with my student and shamed me in the town I lived in. At the same time the teacher after wealthy husband took an exit, took a few years a few more thousand dollars and then took his. After my stream of wealth ended you can imagine the loss of “friends” that then happened. Now mind you I was a yoga and spirituality teacher the entire time and my belief in a higher power never waned because at what time does a human have actual power over us…when we give it to them, we do that.

In trusting too much, you are not doing what you are told, which is to use your own internal connection to Creator. No amount of “I’m telling you the truth, you can trust me” coming from another being, should in any way affect you. But we let it not only drive us, but drive us over cliffs, and then we all stand crying screaming, why God why? I know because, I have fallen off the wagon just like the other humans especially once the attacks reach a certain decimal level.

Not this time. I had to reach out to so-called powerful ex to sign a paper, easy peasy, but no. It was his inherent nature that he left me hanging once again embarrassing me on a business deal. Until I took my power back. I live in a small town wrapped up in a good ole boys network, so push back from a broad has never been allowed. Well, until this broad pushed back. Not trusting the words out of 3 professional peoples mouths is what saved my deal. I knew I was right and stood up under great embarrassment and shame being tut tutted by those around me. Deal is done today!

So trust is a word I’m removing from my vocabulary. I even had to go through the horror of an old friend after 20 some years finally revealing her true colors. It is a horror what this world can do to us when we are not operating under the right operating system. People…We are not here to make friends, or to trust people, or family, or the government, or the Church, if its a sheep you wish to be then hey peace be with you, but if you are even a tiny bit like me, try practicing sovereignty. This means you don’t read a reddit post and decide it’s the truth. You don’t read social media blasts from any where and decide it’s the truth. You engage your own thinking mind. You engage your internal truth monitor. And if you broke it by giving it to someone else, know that it’s in you to have the strength to take it back and decide on your own.

Your parents may not know, your pastor, teacher, partner, anyone and frankly no one may actually know the truth. For me the big lesson was so-called spiritual master. Because it turned out big spiritual teacher guy was a quiet manipulator of women for their money. Same story different day. And there I was thinking I could trust that guy because he used the word God. I think the use of any word by anyone should be in these times held suspect.

Use your brain. Think for yourself. Make your own decisions. Be a better and more responsible human.