I just spent some time trying to die of covid. After nearly 3 years of living like a saint, I let myself mingle for a minute and some mouth breather sent me some germs, they don’t die.. they just spread. They don’t know what’s its like living in such a body. My body is a very delicate orchid, so early covid would have likely done the job of moving my reality. I was so sick and it looked nothing like the covid they talked about, I almost lost my mind. I cried myself to sleep more than a few times. I have been sick a lot I hate crying myself to sleep.

Now I am almost well, and am looking out to a world I don’t want to have anything else to do with.

Why is it so hard to change reality? If I believe in magical thinking then I expect magical workings. I do not wish to live in a world without magic and will continue to magic the shit out of my everyday life until I get to where I wish to be. Problem is I’m pretty sure that I am looking for a new world located some place else in the Milky Way galaxy. I need a space ship. Really, is there something left in the world that hasn’t been killed off by greed. Yay, not a question.

How do we go on, those of us that wished to live in a world of spirit. A world of more than what is produced by the small minds of men. They think on one thing, and if it’s not between their legs its in their hands, and they are in charge of my reproductive rights, my rights to love, my rights to live, white guys holding their dicks. This is my world, this is why I am alive…to scream into the void, are you fucking kidding me.

I was so hopeful that when they turned on the Cern collider that I would wake up in a different reality. Uggg, Cern could have helped us move reality. But nooooooo stuck here in an infinite loop of stupid.

So the fake cult spiritual teachers like mine, were just a prelude to the fake spiritual world they tried to convince us to pay for so they could live there. None of us are going there. The horror of living on a planet where the manipulation of truth is just a thing. And most people give up on truth, and believe what ever they are told by whomever they think should be in charge, and I mean who ever, they are still listening to that idiot trump, small t, the manbaby is an ass.

Evolution is not a thing and backwards we go to barefoot and pregnant. This is the year 2022, I remember sitting at a desk as a kid in the 70’s, this was not the world we wished for, not even close.

The word friend has lost its meaning, people as “friends” will lie right to your face all while calling you friend, the word partner has lost its meaning, the word God, the word love, the word family. If there was ever going to be a spiritual power making itself known I’m thinking no time like the present.

A really excellent fantasy and my greatest joy will be watching humanity pretend to have loved and honor God when God makes an appearance. What a story that will be, …and then in the sky appeared a being most powerful and awe inspiring, striking fear in everyone, a booming voice comes into all the minds of men…time to meet your makers and explain your asshole self.

You think they will hide in their underground bunkers, will they fly in their secret spaceships, I know I read too many fantasy books but this idea is far better than the ugly reality choking my world. It will be so much fun when they realize there is no place to hide. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha