Releasing the need to perform at Christmas has taken years. I don’t have to be everything to everybody. A woman’s issue! Then this last few years of dealing with a spiritual system that took another level of adjusting to my thinking, how did this happen to me? How could I have let them inside of my life, like a parasite take take taking.

Right now, everyone associated with his system is being inundated with giving letters. This organization is constantly asking for money, and right now it’s on hyper drive, the teacher lives in LA has an office in Santa Monica on the beach, an apartment in NYC, and someone bought him a place in Malibu, does this dude need our money. And is setting up free zoom calls to spread their cheer that expensive, need some millions do you…

The horror of it is that all these years later, I needed help and I reached out, here’s the trap, he said he would help…and I waited…and then victim shamed me when I asked about it, he choose not to help without the backbone to say so… Same shit different day, problem is when we how have been victimized, and we get vulnerable through illness, loss or just plain desperation we fuc*ing will reach out, just like to an abusive partner. So know… He is your teacher until you need true help, and if you don’t have your credit card at the ready, expect NOTHING AT ALL. Even as your personal giving reaches into the hundreds of thousands… see its a horror!

The all of us, looking for a spiritual community based on truth and real communication with Divine Intelligence found organizations led by yogis who never ever should have been allowed to be in front of us. Osho’s stuff still being spread like the truth while the dude needed some true self-examination but hey his followers believed him toooooo be the second coming. Birkam’s name makes me sick of my stomach while hot yoga flies through America, as if he didn’t just want girls in no clothes in his class, people please…he raped students and got away with it.

really!

and this last teacher of mine used his effort to save the world by pushing people out of his organization after they have given more than they ever should have, in order to take from an entire new bunch. The verb is to be Yogi Bhajaned, He tosses you aside and becomes a savior to a new bunch. Humans with stars in their eyes because you have become so beloved to the master, ummmmmmmmm how yummy it feels, for a while….my guess he will be moving to Mexico as he already has a presence there.

It’s funny how many yoga/spiritual teachers from America with twisted reputations are now in Mexico. So apparently you can take take take and then move to a different country. And they will! and new ones will pop up, such is the humans drive to be led rather than self-led.

So its the holidays and I am doing great work releasing the cult from my mind and my pocketbook. As the power of my self reflection comes back I can see more clearly how he was able to cross the line from human man to his self need to be more, and he identifies himself as more, surely more than you… and me, obviously.

When I think about how relentlessly he went after my money, the phone calls from little chickys, and him, they so needed money to pay the bills, while he flies first class everywhere, and he so needed money so that he could do what he wants while his teachers went without pay. And he makes plenty of money just in doing private sessions and then buckets of money from the organizations that he heads.

So don’t worry, he is doing fine, he won’t starve praise God, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah There’s a video of him flying private, so yeah he’s doing fine.

It’s the same story and it’s always been the same story. Until we, us, all of us, stop giving our power away and thinking anyone is more powerful. If someone appears to be more powerful than you, its because they are doing the work, that’s how simple it is. When you do the work you reap the rewards and then you find that your giving goes to where it is needed not wanted.

Stand up to your cult! Get free! Think for yourself!